I tried to celebrate my birthday without you hun the first one it was so hard .You loved celebrating x I hope you like my surprise party when talki g to pop's he said you new about it and you kept it a secret from me x I'm sue you was with us xx yes I was drunk lol I did fall and black my eyes this time only because your mum and cam kept me up rite lol and when me and pop's let the balloons of and they got Stuck in the trees I could imagine you laughing up there do miss you like crazy x yes I do go into your room all the time talking to you and talk to the picture side of my bed with you and moritz on x I'm still nagging you lol x one more thing before I go thanks for looking after pop's when he went for his operation x look down on your gorgeous mum and dad and lucky x miss you like crazy all my love always nan xx cc